It’s so important to have people in your life that go out of their way to make you feel better when you’re sad or hurting. Shutting down people will not help you solve your problem, At some point it will only make the situation worse.
How can i say this?
oh well, i just came out from a depressing situation.
Let’s just say that i became a disappointment. Well, i guess that how should i say it, though my parents won’t see it that way. I can’t help it because for me, that was the biggest disappointment i brought to my family this time. There’s no one to blame but me, really. And i think i really deserve a punishment.
I feel so hopeless,helpless, and guilty. I am hurting,actually. I don’t know how to talk about it with other people, well ,not really other people, but it’s really hard for me to talk about it. Aside from pride which i won’t deny, it’s because i’m still hurting and i just can’t still accept the fact that i fail on something, tho it’s not really a total failure. But that’s still a failure.ha? i’m so magulo..
I don’t know how to make people in my life understand what i’m going through. I don’t know how to talk to them , i don’t know how to approach them, pero honestly i think, i need them, right here,right now, they are what i really need right now, but i can’t help pushing them away. well, not literally, but it feels like that ‘s what im doing. I’m so magulo noh?
But just like what i’v been through, don’t you ever isolate yourself from your friends and of course from your family. It’s really depressing without someone to talk to.Don’t indulge yourself in self-pity and negativity. Don’t fear of what others may think of you, remember if they are really your friends, they won’t judge you, they will help you all throughout. They will try to understand and considerate.
This is the reality where you realized who are your real friends. Yes , it will not be easy, but come on, it will not be easier without someone to lean on when you feel like you’re falling apart. It will be a lot easier if you’re going to let all those things you’ve been keeping out to lessen the heaviness you feel.
And if ever you still not comfortable with your friends, then its your family. They will understand you no matter what. They know whats best for you. They won’t leave you. They should be the first one to know on what is happening in your everyday life. They love you for what you are, they love you unconditionally and they don’t want to see you hurting, because that hurts them double.
Do not be a douche bag. Feed your mind with positivity and surround yourself with true people who will be your inspiration and motivation to move forward.